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November 17th, 2005
09:57 pm
Backstage with Jason Mraz? HELL YEAH!
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November 14th, 2005
05:48 pm - Because im too damn lazy to update...
http://www.myspace.com/marcyp
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November 9th, 2005
05:03 pm
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want--good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you
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October 20th, 2005
12:35 pm - Celebration of life ceremony for my Mom
Next Wednesday the 26th at 1pm there will be a public Celebration of Life ceremony and potluck in honor of my mom. It is being held in the home arts building of the fairgrounds.
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October 19th, 2005
03:37 pm
My mom's gone, she passed away at 2:30pm today (Wednesday the 19th).
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October 12th, 2005
02:42 pm - Mom update.
My mom is in the hospital in Yakima. She will be coming back to Ellensburg in a few days and staying at home, receiving home health care. The doctor says she has 3-6 months left, and treatment is not possible.
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September 1st, 2005
11:31 am
My moms cancer spread to her lungs.
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August 16th, 2005
07:16 pm
"you know that we don't approve of your gay relationships, nothing against monica, but would you please not sit so close etc. when your watching a movie when we are here. thanX -MOM"
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August 11th, 2005
04:13 am - Insomniac Rantings?....
... no, i regret to
say this is only a medication-enduced "euphoria". Hah. I do beg to
differ. Now, for those of you who have my number half-dialed, ready to
reprimand me, please hang up your telephones. I havent backtracked
across the path of no return. I simply took a dexedine today as I was
leaving Enumclaw, so as to not fall asleep on the road. If you are
insistant that you would rather I have not taken the pill and
henceforth driven into the Snoqualmie River and died.... well, we have
a problem. Save your breath. Anyways, I only have a few precious pills
left, then I will be switching to an herbal energy remedy. Mind you I
dont abuse these of course, or even use them frequently. Any pill of
that nature found in my possession will only be ingested before I drive
a decent distance. (And no, it doesnt affect my driving, simply keeps
me awake.) Thanks for the care and concern though, eh?
I do hate this feeling, really. The parts where I am so out of my mind
that words flow from my fingers, that part I love in the very moment.
But when that feeling is over, I just feel... awake. Boring and normal
and awake. I cant eat or sleep, I just am what I am in that moment.
That isnt good enough for me. I've been thinking far too much latley,
such as I do. Of course now with Monica gone, its much worse. Megan is
gone too. Lily and I talk, and thats great, I love it. But we both have
busy lives. So I will be ending up in my own little world a lot pretty
soon, which is for the worst if you ask me. I am, however, hoping that
I will be kept busy. I have school and choir, senior activities, the
play, TAA, im working... and I have to find time to go to Enumclaw
whenever I have the chance. So maybe after this week is over I will be
able to avoid thinking in the whole. Ive been far too stressed latley.
In my mind, however, it is all logical.
What am I doing with my life? No, seriously. I have no clue. Yes, I
have all these plans. Go to Central, Theatre Management and Sex
Therapy; but will either of those take me anywhere? Not in particular.
Those are the things I enjoy above all else, but in this situation I
fear that they are nothing but dead ends. It is near impossible to find
and keep a constant stage managing job, and there is NO likely
possibility of it anywhere near where I would want to locate. Same with
sex therapy, it takes a big city. I CANNOT start college without having
my major deteremened. I am not like that, I must have things planned
out. I want to get in and out of college as soon as possible, because I
want to start my life. And I want to do it before im 30, damnit! Ive
been considering majoring in Buisness Management or Public Relations.
Things that will make it easier to get a job, yet things I still enjoy
to an extent. I was slightly considering Elementary School Counseling,
but I cant deal with the psych department for that long. This is all
driving me crazy. Half of the kids my year havent even heard the word
'college' yet, much less be planned out. But that is my nature, and I
need to figure my shit out before I blow a gasket!
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August 10th, 2005
08:54 pm
Monica's gone.
I took her to Enumclaw yesterday and I left today at 5.
I wont see her for 11 days, and then once a week at the most.
Im sad, and I miss her.
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July 29th, 2005
02:19 pm
Monica leaves in 7 days. Yikes dude.
Megans leaving too.
Im just working, been kinda sick latley; just getting over a cold.
I can make it to Enumclaw and back on just a little over a half tank of gas. Good to know.
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July 26th, 2005
10:55 am
Creepy.
1. Open up a blank Word document.
2. Type in Q33 NY in capitals (this is the flight number of the 1st plane to hit the World Trade Center)
3. Highlight it.
4. Change the font size to 48.
5. Change the actual font to wingdings (1).
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July 20th, 2005
11:16 am
Kitty *kind of* has a home. Shes giving a try at being a barn cat out at the Draper Ranch.
Family Reunion kicked ass. Swam down the river 20 miles. Sunburned. Met some new cousins- one of them is a lesbian and shes dating one of the girls from Toys!
Started work at Burger King.
Got a puppy with Mon.... but she had to go live with Monica's parents because shes too loud.
Monica is leaving for student teaching in 17 days. I think I might die.
Mary Norris called me yesterday. Yup. $3000. Yup.
Thats all for now, just letting you know that im alive.
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July 13th, 2005
10:35 am
Anyone want a kitty? Hot chick not included.
No, like seriously we need to find a home for this cat.
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July 8th, 2005
11:15 am
Things are... okay.
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11:15 am
"The world is and was a horrible place, but you'll never change that by being misrable."
::Stolen from Lakyn. Original source not known.::
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July 6th, 2005
10:36 pm
Jagged Edge
Goodbye
Sometimes
What may be the best thing
For you to do
Sometimes it’s the hardest thing
For you to do
And that, that’s real you know ’cause
I know I love you
I know how I feel about you
But I also know that don’t
Make everything aight
And for that reason
I have to say goodbye
Tell me
Have you ever been in a
Situation where the
Best thing you could do
Was the hardest thing
You’ve ever done (the hardest thing you’ve ever done)
But you try to do
What’s right
And I know deep down inside
That I really wanna be
There by your side
But I can’t stand to see you cry
Not when it’s because of me
Yeah, yeah, yeah
When it’s over
I’ll never love another
I’m always thinking of her
I’m doing this because her
I don’t wanna say goodbye
I don’t wanna let her see me cry
Looking out the window
And wonderin’ why
Did we have to
Say all those things
That we said last night
Baby
I don’t wanna say goodbye
So I’m just standing here
Wondering why
Just don’t like to
See when you cry
So i’mma say goodbye
If you think ’cause
I packed your stuff
Inside I ain’t really
Really cracking up
’cause you’re wrong
I just hide it good
’cause I know that’s
What you need girl
And there’s more to life
Than loving yourself
You gotta learn to
Love somebody else, yeah
And that’s why i
Do the things that I do
Oh
Aint no one in this world that can ever take your place
All the love that we share it can never be erased
And I know that, that it hurts so bad
And I’m sorry, cause you’re the best I’ve had
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10:32 am
Ocean Avenue
Yellowcard
There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
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July 5th, 2005
10:38 pm
Well, THAT made life easier.
Relationship= Over.
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